We belong to God whether we choose to acknowledge it or not. If I am created by one who knew me in my mother's womb than I can trust him. I am seeing more of how my walk with Christ has not lined up with his will for me. So living on my own terms has created a mess. At this point there abides in me such a deep sorrow for not being obedient to God. However, I am not going to stay in this place. Forgiveness is so rich and pure. It is a blessing to receive it. The reward is not having to carry around the woundedness that comes with unforgiveness. Most of us understand that forgiveness is not for the others it is for us. I still have some misconceptions about life. Some taught to me generationally and some I came to accept as a given. But, my desire to live as I should encouraged me to leave behind the mess for the spirit tells me what is right. I am now be able to live freed up. Confession is good for the soul. Asking for forgivess when you know you have not done the right thing is cathartic. Agreeing with God when you know you are not right and even if you are, you don't hurt others in the process.
My mother's intercessory prayers are at work. Intercessors have been praying for me. I am thankful for the fervent and effectual prayers of the rightoeus that availeth much. I am indebted to people who cover me with prayer. I pray for myself and others. So I must work harder to be better at living the way I should. . Thank you for your gift of caring and how you overshadow me with an abundance of grace. I am not yet who I am going to be and I am grateful for the covering. To Pastors Paul and Christine James I am so blessed to have you to care for my soul that you will tell the truth and expect us to do what is right. I wish not to disappoint God or the two of you.