Prayer Changes Things

Prayers are being answered in big ways at our house.  We have a lot to pray for, but something  changed. When I asked God to strengthen me in places I am  weak he did it.  My faith was on shaky ground and I did not look at myself as the source of the problem. I was. When I acknowledged my fault and confessed to God, I got help. There are circumstances at our house that have developed and we have no where to go but, to our Father God.  We know that deliverance is on the way.  We also know that God will fix this in his time.  In the meantime, we will wait and do our part.  God is doing things in our lives to show us how big he is and more than before, we are telling our mountains how big our God is. I am so grateful to the Lord for his faithfulness to us even when we are not faithful to him. I love the way God loves us and I am still amazed to be loved to this degree without having to do anything to earn it.  Amazing Grace. We are worshipping God differently. Not for what he does but, for who he is in the lives of his children.  Our God is so amazing.

Change Gon Come

The time to change has come.  I have lived long enough to know when it is time to move on.  I have been so blessed by the people God has sent my way to favor me and help me. Over the years people  have come and gone.  The ones that left made way for the ones that are here now.  People are in our lives for reasons or seasons. It is time to go in a different direction.
I do not want to get to heaven and find that I left a lot of work undone.  Some of what I am faced with at this juncture is scary.  I am hestitant and sometimes afraid.  I haven't always acknowlegded the presence of God in my life to the extent that I can do all things. It is not by might but, by his spirit thus sayeth the Lord. I have opportunities opening for me.  I want my  territory enlarged so  I can accomplish all that has been set before me.  I must remember the source of my hope and peace.  God did not give us a spirit of fear so when I feel it coming on I will continue to press in and pray. I shed tears for what I am about to leave behind and look forward to a good and properous future. I will walk in peace which is not the absence of trouble but the presence of God.  If God before me, who could be against me?

Confessions

We belong to God whether we choose to acknowledge it or not.  If I am created by one who knew me in my mother's womb than I can trust him.  I am seeing more of how my walk with Christ has not lined up with his will for me.  So living on my own terms has created a mess.  At this point there abides in me such a deep sorrow for not being obedient to God.  However, I am not going to stay in this place.  Forgiveness is so rich and pure.  It is a blessing to receive it.  The reward is not having to carry around the woundedness that comes with unforgiveness.  Most of us understand that forgiveness is not for the others it is for us.  I still have some misconceptions about life.  Some taught to me generationally and some I came to accept as a given.  But, my desire to live as I should encouraged me to leave behind the mess for the spirit tells me what is right.  I am now be able to live freed up.  Confession is good for the soul. Asking for forgivess when you know you have not done the right thing is cathartic. Agreeing with God when you know you are not right and even if you are, you don't hurt others in the process.

My mother's intercessory prayers are at work. Intercessors have been praying for me. I am thankful for the fervent and effectual prayers of the rightoeus that availeth much.  I am indebted to people who cover me with prayer. I pray for myself and others. So I must work harder to be better at living the way I should. . Thank you for your gift of caring and how you overshadow me with an abundance of grace.  I am not yet  who I am going to be and I am grateful for the covering.  To Pastors Paul and Christine James I am so blessed to have you to care for my soul that you will tell the truth and expect us to do what is right.  I wish not to disappoint God or the two of you.

I'LL TRUST THE WORD OF GOD RATHER THAN THE WORD OF MEN

I work in an elementary school.  Several of the students who know that I am a believer approached me today to see if I believed the world was going to end tomorrow.  I asked them if it did happen what could they do?  Most said they did not know and they were scared.  I remember years ago when this same group of people tried to convince others that the world would end on a certain date and Jesus would be coming.  I am amazed that there are people all around who have yet to search the scriptures for themselves and have allowed themselves to believe what I feel to be the rantings of a fool.

The bible says that we will not know the minute or the hour that the Son of Man will appear.  Just as others have their belief that saturday is it, I prefer to believe the Word of God .  The children I spoke with were afraid, so I told them, when they see me on Monday morning, come and get a big hug and love from me as always. 

I know that many people think I am being duped by whom I place my  faith in and that I am dead wrong.  So be it. I am willing to take my chances on the Word Of God , than to trust in another version of someone elses inaccuracies.

I'd rather get to the end of my journey with Jesus than to have lived my life without him. When he does come, I will be ready.

YOU STAND

A dear friend is experienceing the break up of her marriage after 25 years due to adultery and other issues of selfishness.  Her tears and broken heartedness are hidden from some, but not from me.  She trusts me in the sense of telling her the truth and not sugar coating things.  That has always been the premise of our friendship from the beginning.  It's hard to see her in such pain but, we both agree that God keeps good records. There

are people in her former sphere of influence that have come to a conculsion of her matter without full knowledge of the details and as a result have severed ties with her.

My duty as her sisterfriend is to remind her that in this season some folks will depart.  Her life is being purged from people, old habits, disappoinment and opinions that will not be seen her in new landscape.  I am also charged to pray for her and her journey.  When this is over, there will be women who will hear her story and know that at times she was carried and,  others she was covered. Some will reconcile with her beacuse of their arrogant opinions.  Their judgement of her former marriage rests on grounds insufficient to produce certainty.  Lest we forget there are three sides to every story - his, hers and the truth. In essence what others think doesn't matter in the long run, only what God knows matters.  He keeps track with impunity.

Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not to your own understanding. 

PKG to MMLH   XOXOXO

GRACE

It is never too late to change.  How exciting it is to know that, but more so to do something about it? I have become so much more self aware as the years ebb and flow.  I see things about myself that I was not aware of before now.  Not all of them are good.  Once again, I  honor a loving Savior that is willing to reveal the places in me that need change.  And, while I am tending to the business he has appointed me, I am day by day a recipient of his grace.  How much better would we be in relating to one another as the Lord does with us under the auspices of grace?
I believe there is less pain when we advocate to grace one another. We can move on to other important tasks that won't waste precious time. Those  of us in my age bracket (past 50 years) probably have more time behind us than we do in front.  I don't desire not to waste another moment if at all possible.  Lord please help me to do what you have called me to do with the power you have already given me.

Hurts, Pains and Disappointments

We have no control over how people treat us.  Sometimes they decide to treat you in a way that doesn't

line up with how you treat you them.  It hurts to be hurt. It hurts to be angry.  The Word tells us to be angry but, do not sin. That is not always a pattern of success for me.  I get so ticked and can go from zero to one hundred, at least in my mind.  I have to sit in my words.  I can't always say what I am thinking. I am very aware of how words hurt.  My sister reminds me that we will stand before our God and give an account of everything we said and our deeds while inhabiting this earthly vessel.

Disappointment is different,  When you expect others to behave a certain way and they are or unable or unwilling to do what they said they would, therein lies disappointment. Hurt, pain and disappointment have been my companions the last three or fours days.  Today I decided I was sick of them, and am moving on.  They are so stagnate.  They don't go far and won't allow you to either.

They lead you to depression, breakdown, loss of heart and abject failure if they stay too long. They have to go. I sent information out about this blog to a lot of family and friends.  I got very few responses, I thought everyone who knew would be happy for me.  Not necessarily, so I need to move on because I have no intention whatsoever to stop writing. This gift is from God so I know he sees if others don't.  Even those who share my blood.